Juno

I just watched Juno, and I kept on crying during the second half of the movie. Couldn't stop. I'm so glad that nothing of this sort happened to me.

Sick.

I've been feeling rather unwell lately. I don't know if it's the effects of the antibiotics, stress and loneliness combined. I realised that I may just start crying all of a sudden these days, when I'm alone. I don't know why either. My head's spinning as I write this, and I'm crying for God-knows-what.

Please.

Please. Anyone who's reading this. Stop me from going back. Stop me from relenting. Stop me believing every word he says. I wish to get out. Now.

Extreme sian-ness.

I was so afraid that he would stop treating me right, that it was just a move to get me back. Then he'd revert to his old self. Well, he did. He did. What's all the talk about no more games? Here he is, playing DotA three weeks in a row. What's all the talk about controlling his temper? Here he is, getting annoyed because I confronted him about things he did wrong. Where have all those promises of being a new man gone? He still treats me the same, before he tried to get me back. I have been treating him more than decently. I prevented myself from getting upset about most things that he would consider little. I showered love on him. Did he reciprocate? Only occasionally. I just feel more and more sian with each passing incident.

All lies.

I hate myself for not having the courage to climb out of this cesspit.